Tuesday, December 18, 2012

this blog is changing title

In a day or two this will no longer be confessions of a schizo junky....nope...I'm not one hundred percent but I'm better than 93....tee hee....anyways...turning over a new leaf...one of a more positive state of mind...only keeping in tune with the light....one person said to me once that happiness was a state of being....I say, you intellectualized an emotion ...you created a stagnation....

Happiness is a life style...simple thought....if your friends are all negative all of the time then they are like poo....the by product of all nutrients (love and light) sucked out of delicious food and expelled from your body....if you bathe or even stand in a tub full of poo, you will not only get sick but you will smell like poo.....

so you say you want to be happy ....well first heal your self....purge your surroundings like your digestive track does ...absorb the positive and reject the negative....but its journey doesn't end there

You released the neg things attached to you into nature and so you must clean up you mess.... most will reject this but those few truly evolved Human beings will see its utter beauty...Pray for them! Extend the light to them, be a lighthouse in a land where there is none...transmute poo into candy again...

and a warning to the TRULY WISE....The more you try to advance the more they and your self will try to pull you backwards...walk in the light

because you can inject light into darkness but you can't insert darkness into light...

tip:  If you are COMPLETELY filled with God's love and light...then darkness won't be able to linger...

BUT you have to REALLY want it...and pray for it all the time....

Growth is like a yeast infection....when you treat it there is a dying off period of the yeast...which is very painful..ect but after there is still discomfort and then release ...and for ever more there is maintenance and sometimes remission....but you fight every day and you will see the benefits out way the pain....

Where would the sweet be with out the sour?

Monday, December 17, 2012

Love...not with a knife

ah all the songs I could sing....the people I could regain....but then again to what end....when you left me for Dead yet I did not die....could not die will not die...I'm gonna show them the light but it will not be me..for I am but an instrument of light ..to the divine....of Jehovah's creation....my teeth are getting whiter....my body is not bloated....in fact I would venture to say that I have lost about 20 lbs...my boobs are much firmer...and my hair is starting to style its self as it did such a long time ago....echoes of a past still live within me...

AND IN ALL MODEST AND HUMBLE SPEECH, I OWE THIS ALL TO THE ONE TRUE GOD JEHOVAH! AMEN!

 I am not bragging...but offering each and every one of you this beauty..love and light...it could be yours....and the Peace your soul is looking for...even the ability to SAVE THE ONES YOU LOVE....even from them selves....I hope you read these words...in fact...I know you've already heard them....You know what to do....stop being an accessory to.......and start by saving you...then do what you feel your heart tells you to....YOUR HEART UNLEASHED FROM THE ASHES OF YOUR OWN CREATION....FEEL LOVES KISS...REMEMBER....AND LIVE!  There is life after death....BUT YOU ARE NOT DEAD YET......................

LIVE!

Monday, December 10, 2012

St. Expedite....is a Saint...of Jehovah!

I know St. Expedite is a good Man...he is exceptionally..Quick..Just...Fair and a Lover Lover...he has been nothing but Kind and Understanding with me in this time...and I don't make Saints...but I know he is one and that's all that matters to me!  

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Everything but the last part....

Second edition....

I'm transfiguring my self...with help from a high...into something ....beautiful .....uninhibited....something a little more ME....I'm taking back this ball of clay...and I'm molding a new me.... undeniable...beautiful ME!  One you can't replicate....no matter how many tricks of any trade you learn....I'm gonna fill that void...and shine....in fact I always had...I just couldn't see it....


this area....once lived....but for the sins of the father did it fall....and then a little angel come down from heaven....to be born of woman....and she was crucified....but she did not die....she couldn't die....not till the mission of LOVE was fulfilled....she is NOT  Jesus....she is NOT God....but a messenger....a symbol...of peace...


I saw a double rainbow the other day....and more and more look to the skies...there will be more to come...those two rainbows...were just for me....a sign that I was doing good....that the spirits liked what I was doing....and it filled me with peace...and not only did I see a double rainbow in one town...but in my home town as I came home after seeing the other two...was there one waiting for me at home....


but they were not just for me....but many people that day saw them....and were affected by the sheer magistracy ...beauty and love ...because you could see ALL of the colors...even Purple....now that is True Magic....live ...learn ....LOVE....

Monday, November 26, 2012

Dear God...

You have a funny way about your creations...God...I may have been wrong...I may never fully understand you or life...and maybe in the end I don't have to...how ironic that my master...becomes my lover ...becomes my oppressor...then I save them? now that's a drama too well written....better than I could even ever dream of....how does that work....I could explain the story....but that would be to easy...and in your darkest heart...you already know who Is telling the truth...you just don't want to believe it... fine ...I'm not here to educate you....just the messenger...I'm not Jesus....but I will try to save you anyways....

I Know Who You Are

I Know What You've Done

I Know What You Could Be

and I KNOW I WILL SAVE YOU FROM YOUR SELF.....and you will not be the only one....but you will also NOT BE THE FIRST ...NOR THE LAST...BUT SOMEWHERE IN-BETWEEN....because in the end I do forgive you...but in the end...there are other things on my list than you....You Are Not My Everything....but you are not nothing either....

but do me this favor...in the future....and starting today..pray for your entirety to walk in the light...

TRUTH:

Every day you wake up and realize what a fake you are

Every day you wish you had never met me

Not because I suck...but because I am a mirror of truth to what you really are....and you hate me for it

Underneath it all you all were Envious of me....so much that you wished to destroy me...

I was everything you wish you could be....

I am a symbol...but not yours

and in the very end....Edited because of human frailty...and the human ego...and I shall struggle with it and maybe one day...I will let go and Love .....Live...Freedom!



Thursday, November 15, 2012

St. Expedite, is da man!

Have I told you lately that I love you...have I told you lately that you are da man....St. Expedite...is da man...nuf said...no one is quicker or cuter than that guy!